I have struggled with being fashionable, especially after becoming a Christian; I’ve gone back and forth with my reasons for either not caring and caring. What does appearance have to do with who you are on the inside? Wait, who am I on the inside? A sinner saved by grace, so I still have the old tendencies; you see, I was raised by a mother who never stepped out of the house without looking impeccable (makeup and dressed up), she loved the latest fashion (70s clothes, yuck) but anyway, she always looked great, then my father passed away and all of that changed, she went through a deep depression that she kept from me for years. She didn’t come out of it the same person, although she did have makeup on all the time (because she suffered from Vitiligo) she no longer cared about purchasing the latest fashions. I went through different stages in response to that, caring too much about it, not caring enough and going back and forth over and over again for years. As a Christian, I represent the King of Kings and as such my appearance should matter, it not only says something about me but the God I claim as my Savior; that’s a lot of pressure but I remember praying about it, because you see, sometimes we can be so caught up in what people think about us, then not caring what people think, but I believe what we look like does say a lot about us. I want to look presentable at all times; let’s face it when we look at someone, we form an opinion, sometimes even a story about someone based on their appearance.
As a Christian, I represent the King of Kings, my identity is found in Him and as such my appearance should matter, it not only says something about me but my God; that’s a lot of pressure, I have prayed about it because sometimes we can get caught up in what people think about us, then not caring what people think, but I believe what we look like does say a lot about us. I want to look presentable at all times because, let’s face it when we look at someone we form an opinion, sometimes even a story about someone based on their appearance. “When they look at me, what do they think?”; I ask myself. Do they say, “She just got out of bed,” or “She spends way too much time on herself,” but I guess regardless of what they think, more importantly, what does my Savior think? Is He well pleased with my representation of Him? So, once again I’ve come full circle to not caring what others think but instead, “What does He think?” and the rest is of His concern.
Have you ever looked at these movie stars, singers, etc. how they’re propped up as beautiful, then you think, “are they really beautiful?” I have known some of the plainest looking people be the most beautiful people, so what is beautiful, fashionable, have to do with anything? I still struggle with the shallowness of it all and the non-shallowness of it all.
Matthew 5:16 (KJV)
Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.
John 15:8 (KJV)
Herein is my Father glorified, that ye bear much fruit; so shall ye be my disciples.
All the women in God’s word that are described as “fair to look upon” were no more blessed than others who were not described as such, so I guess the question is what should be more important to me? Man’s or God’s opinion? Do I dishonor Him by wanting to represent Him with my appearance or at least not be a distraction?
1 Samuel 16:7 K(KJV)
But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.
The things I ponder.
Have a great day everyone!